In 2004, a guy by the name of James Zetlen put up a website and eventually published a photo book called "Sorry Everybody". This site/book consisted of thousands of Americans holding up signs apologizing for George W. Bush's re-election. It was Zetlen's way, along with thousands of Americans, of apologizing to the rest of the world for the failures of their government, and apologizing in advance for the harm they feared Bush would cause during his second term.
I remember thinking that this project was weird and moving at the same time. "How can one apologize for actions which are not their own?", I wondered. And yet, I admired people from a country normally so patriotic publicly declaring that they did not stand with and for everything their country and its' Commander in Chief did and said.
Today I felt the need to don my clerical collar and hold up a sign apologizing.
What precipitated this was the result of a meeting of Anglican Primates from all over the world in Canterbury this past week (briefly, Primates are representatives of national Anglican bodies worldwide, so they come from different countries, races and cultures, yet are all Anglican).
Against a backdrop of climate change, the Syrian refugee crisis, daesh fundamentalists running amok and all the other crises facing the world today, the meeting seems to have been dedicated mostly to arguing about whether gay people should be allowed to marry.
I realize I have readers worldwide, and so I do not know in what esteem all my readers hold gay people, but in my country of Canada and in my generation (40-something), debating whether or not gay people are entitled to equal rights is as reprehensible as arguing whether black people are equal to white people, poor people are as important as rich people or whether women are equal to men.
For the most part, my culture and my national church preach the fundamental value, worth and equality of all people, end of story, no exceptions.
I have to admit up front that I am a small cog in a big machine, and I don't know much about international Anglican politics, so I will refrain from trying to influence your opinion on the decisions that were made at this meeting because I am simply not aware of all the facts. I will encourage you instead to Google info on the meeting itself and the responses of the Episcopal/Anglican church.
So what am I sorry for?
I am sorry for all my gay colleagues and friends who continue to be injured by the dogma and polity of religion, who continue to struggle even in this day and age just to be treated with dignity.
I am sorry for anyone who has been hurt by being excluded or made to feel less-than by these decisions.
I am sorry for my American colleagues who now suffer for their interpretation and pursuit of the Gospel.
I am sorry if this decision has convinced you yet again of the irrelevance of faith, religion, and/or church.
I am sorry for our seeming inability to learn from the disastrous effects religion has had on groups of people, whether they be of different genders, races, creeds, colours or sexual persuasions, when religion just automatically assumes that it knows better.
I am sorry for the audacity of people deciding who gets to be at the big table and who sits in the corner.
I am sorry for religions that punish or apply sanctions to any person or group with whom them disagree.
I am sorry if you were told that church was a place of love, tolerance, acceptance, equality and exploration and have ever found that to be untrue.
Tomorrow, I will have to step into a pulpit and I will have to preach the Gospel, the "good news" of Christ. Tomorrow, I am going to have to don my collar again and try to represent with integrity a global Church which, to be honest, has lost a great deal of integrity for me. Tomorrow, I will have to walk into a church and try to convince people that despite the actions of my global church, the church at least in Canada is a safe place to be different, in which to seek, in which to be affirmed, and in which God's love can be felt, not despite who you are, but because of who you are.
Tomorrow's Gospel is John 2:1-11, which is the story of the wedding at Cana at which Jesus turns water into wine. This is priceless because some Bible historians claim that the wedding at Cana might have been Jesus' own wedding. The theory is, according to these scholars, that Jewish custom at the time of Jesus was that the groom and his family were responsible for preparing the wedding feast, so when his Mary comes in in a huff and complains to Jesus that there is no wine, this clearly identifies Jesus as the groom because it would have been his responsibility to provide the booze.
Some people get upset at this theory because they can't cope with the thought of Jesus being married, as though marriage was such a profane institution that our Lord would never take part in it, yet in practically the same breath, they will deny the right of gay people to be married because it is such a sacred institution.
Do you see the problem?
But I'm not going to preach about that. The possibility of Jesus being in a publicly professed, monogamous, loving relationship causes my faith absolutely no problem whatsoever, and in fact would only make me respect and relate to Jesus even more
I am going to preach about the new wine. At the end of the Gospel, the steward praises the bridegroom (whomever he may have been) because apparently the custom at the time was to serve superior wine at the beginning of the feast, when the guests all had their wits about them and their taste buds were all functional. As the evening wore on and people started getting a little tipsy and cared less about the quality of the beverages, the host would break out the cheap stuff.
The steward praises the bridegroom (whomever he may have been) because the wine Jesus provided them with was far superior to the wine that was being served at the beginning of the feast.
Now, the incorrect way of interpreting this passage, but one which I still hear all too often, is to say that Judaism was the old and inferior wine, and that Christianity is the new and superior wine. I think it would be more accurate to say that Judaism is good wine (remember Jesus was a Jew, not a Christian), but that Jesus was bringing the people something new, a variation, a new wine, a new message of God's love which would be far richer to quaff than the wine they were used to.
The Gospel passage speaks not of lines of division between Jew and Christian (no such division existed when this event would have happened, nor even when Luke wrote his Gospel), but of a substance and sustenance that would be far more life-giving and satisfying than anything they had ever experienced.
When addressing same-sex blessing and ordination, many people who are against it turn to the Bible and say, "What does the Bible say? What did Jesus say?". In many ways, this question is simply irrelevant because this Gospel was written 2 millennia ago.
We really should be asking, "What would the the Bible say today? What would Jesus say today?"
Jesus never fought for the equality of women and he spoke quite casually in a number of parables of slaves bringing messages to kings or being placed in charge of households and/or finances in the absence of their master. Women were second-class citizens in his day, and slavery was a totally normal and accepted social practice. These were simply unquestioned realities in his time and culture. Are we therefore to conclude that Jesus oppressed women and supported slavery? Are we to assume that feminism and the Civil Rights movement were not good and right and God-inspired?
Surely not. Merely that the Gospel Jesus preached was relevant to the issues of his time. I don't think it is too much of a stretch to believe that Jesus would have been an ardent feminist and abolitionist had he been born in the last century.
We need to let the Gospel speak to the issues of our time, and we need to know that the new wine Jesus spoke of is ever-new and ever-flowing. It changes. It is an ongoing revelation. As with any change, there will be struggle, there will be disagreement, there will be pain.
But I will keep drinking that new wine because I have faith in a few things.
I have faith that one day there will be no more need for apology, no more need for exclusion, no more need for separation. I have faith that the church and religion can and will be a positive space for self-exploration, for knowing God and for journeying with God. I have faith and believe that God loves us, rich or poor, gay or straight, black or white, male or female, pierced, tattooed, dreadlocked, whether someone else says you are worthy or unworthy.
I believe that all are welcome at God's table, and as long as God grants me the privilege to serve at His table, every single person without exclusion is welcome to pull up a chair and share the new wine with me.